Something Dark Is Coming

Saturday morning, at the coffee shop Dunn Bros (on Red Bridge and Holmes), I ran into a couple of people from Life Group, my church peer group. We talked for over an hour, which was a refreshing experience for me; I used to do that almost every day by the end of my term at BG. While I wanted more, Saturday, I was also left with a feeling of frustration. The conversation turned slightly metaphysical, and I tried to speak outside the contemporary Christian vernacular. This resulted in a barrier of sorts. Also, the main topic of conversation landed on how these people don’t know me as well as I wish they did. Third, the issue of my eventual visit to BG became the stuff of foreshadows.

”Something dark is coming, Helo.”

Since then, my state of mind has been vaguely Quinlan Vos-esque, pursuing an abstract sense of redemption, the same sort of tunnel vision that tricked me into a labyrinth of dissatisfaction during Thesis Hell. Obviously, things aren’t that dire these days, but I am in a sour situation.

While it seems April is another failed month in terms of my progress, the world keeps on spinnin’. Things are constantly shifting around, giving me motion sickness because little is actually changing with me.

Ling and Devin had their second on April 6th. Her name is Lydia.

”Jerry, you gotta come see the BAY-bee!”

Dean has a new job with hours almost identical to mine, so we are going to try to get together about once a week. We have noble intentions of starting the story mode on Halo 2.

I still haven’t seen a baseball game this season.

Brad is out there somewhere. I should call him.

J.A.G. season 3 came out in March. I watched it. Season 4 comes out in August.

Easter was crap. After church, everyone else in the world had plans but me. I didn’t even get any candy. I almost got a pint of strawberry ice cream on a whim, but that sounded somehow very pathetic, and I’m not big on ice cream anyway. If I almost never eat ice cream, I wasn’t about to do it just because the rest of the world was eating sugar. Also, I was extremely put off by the fact that NO COFFEE SHOPS WERE OPEN.

At work, on my iPod, I’ve been listening to the audio adaptations of the X-Wing book series, some of my all-time favorite books. I read them all my freshman year at Truman—the same year of my obsession with X-Wing Alliance on my old Compaq. Ah, it takes me back. Good books. Some of the very best.

I’m remarkably close to a promotion in karate. Before I can polish my technique more, however, I seriously need to improve my ankle flexibility.

Not much luck on the job search plan thing. I’m snooping around UMKC, but there’s not much happening in April.

In three weeks, I have played Final Fantasy VI for all of one hour.

The weather has been suitably dreary and ominous. I approve. It makes the soundtracks to Battlestar Galactica sound better somehow. My brother has taped the third season… I need to get those tapes, because I don’t get the Sci-Fi channel.

My responsibility as a composer remains an elusive haunt. This so-called quest for redemption seems to be the impetus these days, but I am determined to abstain from composing this month. However, I have been organizing my ideas for projects to start, including two massive score projects that rival Fantascapes in both scope and futility. I’m actually getting pretty excited about them.

That’s what I’m “up to” these days. There you go. I haven’t posted in a while because I couldn’t think of a way to coherently post about some of this stuff, so I’m just throwing it all at your windshield. Enjoy.

1) Martial Law – Battlestar Galactica (season 2)
2) Something Dark Is Coming – Battlestar Galactica (season 2)
3) Terms – Kingdom of Heaven
4) Better Man – Kingdom of Heaven
5) Wall Breached – Kingdom of Heaven
6) The Asteroid Field – The Empire Strikes Back
7) Debriefing – Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater
8) Anakin’s Dark Deeds – Revenge of the Sith
9) The Promised Land – Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children
10) Battle in the Forgotten City – Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children