A Bad Year Ends

One dude moved out and the other is about to do the same. Meanwhile, one dude moved in and I’m supposed to meet-&-greet a prospective female roommate (from what I understand, she does not have four arms or the voice of Jason Statham, as per previous comments). So two new roommates will make things feel a lot different, that’s for sure. By the way, one guy took his router with him, so once again I can’t use the internet at the house.

I’m between jobs still, which also certainly adds to the feeling of change on the wind. I just don’t know what to do or where to do it. It seems like this is the time to pick a serious direction and go with it, but it’s easier said than done. I might be stuck for a while longer. But I’m at least opening myself up to the possibility of finding opportunities in other cities.

I’ve failed every single short-term goal I had set for myself. I had made Christmas a “deadline” of sorts for several minor accomplishments, and every single one has crumbled. To be fair, I would have been on track if I still had my job and if Finale wasn’t a punk. So it feels pretty bad to (once again) fall short of my expectations for myself in the short-term.

Speaking of Finale problems, I finally figured it out. Back when I was screwing around with some Giga Fonts to try to get Volition to work, I had changed something and forgot about it. I finally traced the problem back to that one little bastard of a setting and had to call a former classmate to ask how to reconfigure my crap. Well, I can use Finale again properly now. It’s about time, too. I already have several new ideas, but I’m not going to talk about them because then you’ll just nag me later. Get off my back, I’m getting work done.

However, my laptop keeps filling up, which is both sad and scary. So I have started deleting files that are less than vital. I threw out about half of my vast amount of pictures from Truman, and I plan to do the same with BG next. I still have the photos on CD somewhere, after all. It’s amazing how many pictures I have of Steve “Canada” drinking beer. At an average of 1 MB per photo, I’ve cleared out a lot of old junk from storage, making space for new Logic projects and such. Photo albums take up a lot of space, man. It’s nice to have a slideshow screensaver, but so many pictures are actually redundant, poorly developed, poorly shot, or just evoke unpleasant memories. They are the first to go.

You’re next, First Year At Bowling Green. You’d better pray you have enough fond memories to save… or I will delete the whole folder of you!

I haven’t seen my Life Groupies since the wedding, and I don’t feel that sorry. As you can gather from earlier posts, I’m tired of expecting more from a community that gets along just fine without me. They go back farther than I do with each other and they aren’t that active in my life on a daily basis, so they’ll probably never be what I have been trying to get them to be. In a way, I’ve turned my back on my friends, you could say. Yeah, you could say that. If you want to be a dick about it. The way I see it is, I’m just looking in a new direction because I’m tired of being left out or let down by the same people. Nothing against them or anything… it’s just circumstance, I suppose. Like how I was the only person not to get the memo about the Christmas party being cancelled due to bad roads, bought my stuff to bring to the party, and very cautiously drove all the way out to Olathe only to discover an empty house. Thanks. That’s not as bad as the wedding reception fiasco, but thanks. It’s like when Charlie Brown tries to kick the football… and every time Lucy pulls it away at the last second and I fall flat on my back.

Also, I haven’t been able to go to karate this month. At first, it was a matter of being screwed over by my deadbeat roommates and having to skip class to do their work. Then I realized they were both leaving in the middle of the month, so I might have to be “on” instead of go train for another week. Then I lost my job. I realized the last couple weeks would be vacation and therefore no class, therefore why pay a month’s fee if I’d only be able to go to two or three classes, tops? I talked to my sensei and explained that I’d just have to come back in January. So that’s one more way I feel isolated and forestalled now. Also, I think the karate club Christmas party happened without me… and I think the Life Group Christmas party was rescheduled and passed by, too… so I just missed both Christmas parties?

2007 has been completely vicious to me (and I still owe my family for that new transmission I had to buy in March). A lot of things have already been turned on their heads in time for the new year to begin. So things are changing (hopefully for the better… though I can’t imagine things getting too much worse) and I am trying to get a foothold.

Whatever happens next, I’m already sick of it.

“Life is just a series of reasons to bitch.”
--The Captain